What is it I mean to you?
You did not care for me.
You were not there for me.
Through every night of violent pains
You remained ignorant of his gains
When did you protect me?
When you drank?
When you fed us Alcohol?
because you couldn’t drink alone
In and out of homes
you were never there.
You were your only care.
But then i was there
I was there to pick you up
To drive you places when you would not stop
I clothed you, fed you, showered you, and yet this was not enough
upon a child you threw your pain, your gain, your responsibility
And when i did not live up
you beat and screamed at me
You withheld you from me
And through out my life of constant tears and pain
It has always been about your gain.
You took the phone calls when i was raped
but only so i could listen to your unending tape.
And my now i am free
you can not handle me
For you do not like the truth
that you were uncouth.
You will not take responsibility
For anything that was done to me.
You will die a child
and it will be everybody else’s fault
but in the end it will be you who has not dealt
For i have moved on, full of hope and gain
Because i no longer feel your pain.
I take my responsibility and accept that i am me
Because I am already free.
Free to become all that i am meant to be.
Because this cycle has stoped with me.